Monday, July 7, 2008

It's July 7

***Updated @ 9:45 pm***
my due date. i have waited and anticipated this day for 9 months now. And its finally here, only instead of awaiting our baby's arrival we are left missing and mourning him. I have missed him so much but really how can you miss something that wasn't even supposed to be here until now? Now he really should be here, he should be home with us, we should be taking care of him now. Now the missing him has really begun.


Today Robb and I brought an "It's a Boy" balloon to Brenhams grave site to celebrate his due date. I am not really sure why, i guess i have always looked forward to getting a balloon like that one day, and thought, hey why not still get one. so i did,
here is how my conversation went with the dollar store lady(dsl) who i bought the balloon from:
me: i need the balloon that says "its a boy" number 72.
dsl: aw, okay, how old is the baby?
me: uh, just a day old.
dsl: oh, are you an aunt,
me: uh....nope... just a friend
dsl: oh is the little guy healthy?
me: yup. he is perfect.
dsl: well congrats to your friend. that will be $2.11
me: okay. thanks
dsl: oh looks like you have some problems of your own, whats that? (points to my port)
me: uh yea, i am on dialysis, can we stop talking now?
okay, so i didnt say that last part, but really come on. Call me chicken but i really didnt feel like getting into everything with this random stranger on a day like today.
Anyway, doesnt this look cute? Totally worth the awkwardness with the dollar store lady.
And there was even a new teddy bear camping out there, who brought him that? Thank you whoever it was, what a sweet surprise!

then this is what we saw on the way home from the cemetery on our church's sign:

its been quite a day, thanks for all your thoughts, prayers, and cards today.

~blessings~

21 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm sure this day is difficult for you. I am praying that you make it through this day and the days to come with HOPE and know that you are in God's hands.

Crystal said...

I am soo so sorry. I am sure today is so hard for you. You are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I am praying for you and for God to give you comfort through this hard time. Please know that your family loves you and if we could take away the pain, we would. You are in our thoughts daily and we love you!

Myrna said...

And your extended church family loves you guys very much. Always praying for comfort and peace for you.

sumi said...

Hugs, Katie. I am praying that Jesus will carry you through this difficult day, and that you will feel his sweet presence like never before.

Anonymous said...

thinking about you today and always :)

Justine said...

Praying for you during this difficult time.....

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you Robb and your whole family today. May the lord bring you comfort and peace today and in the coming months!

Anonymous said...

Katie, Not a day goes by that we don't think of you and Robb and your precious little son, Brenham...our 1st grandchild, our precious little grandson. We miss Brenham soo so very much. We wish there was something we could do to take all the hurt away. As your Dad and Mom, we pray for wisdom as for the right words to say to you and Robb. Love you so much!

Dad & Mom

Amanda said...

I'm praying for you always, but today especially.

Trish said...

thinking of you during this day!

Anonymous said...

May God bring you peace again soon. Please know that so many know your story and are praying for you. I hope you can feel the love and support branched throughout the community. God bless you and Robb and again grant you a peace to move on.

Anonymous said...

Katie and Robb - you and your whole family are in our thoughts and prayers today especially - may you find hope through the tears knowing God loves you so much.

Jacki Rigterink said...

Robb and Katie,
I am so sorry that today was so hard for you! Even though I have not called much, or e-mailed I want you to know that I check your blog daily and have been praying hard for you! We love you so much and just wish we could take your pain away!

Charlene said...

I continue to pray for you and your family. Words of comfort sometimes come so difficultly, but know you are thought of by so many people (just look at all the posts!). These are the times we see one set of footprints in the sand. Let God carry you through the hard times.

Anonymous said...

You made it through the much anticipated day...YOU ARE SO STRONG!!!

Anonymous said...

Dear Robb & Katie,
There is an old song that says "No one understands like Jesus. He's a friend beyond compare"! He is the one to lean on first and then ALL of those other well-meaning but --oh so frail humans who have come around you. I'm asking Him to give the comfort and healing to your spirits and then for that other miracle of healing in your body sooner that you think possible. You are "dancing in the rain with the best of them"! May God continue to bless you and keep you in His love...still praying in Hamilton

Patrice said...

Have been praying and thinking of you. I know how much the 7th meant to you both looking forward to welcoming your Brenham Jay into your lives as a full term baby boy. Keep strong and gather strenght from above, many are thinking of you and praying for you. I wish there was something more to say or do to comfort you during this time.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you but I just wanted to say how sorry I am that you are going through this. But at the same time, I am in awe of your courage, you are both so strong. Inspirational-you define the word. God is working through you. I prayed for you as I read your blog and I will continue to pray for you.

Jennyc said...

I love the balloon. I am sorry that you had to answer all the personal questions just to get it. I do understand wanting to put the balloon on Brenham's grave site. That is a neat idea.

allisonilene said...

hi, I just wanted to tell you that I have been praying for you since I heard about you from BOTB and I happened over here today after not seeing this in a while, and I am so sorry for everything, but it made me cry to see that sign from that church. God is amazing and what he does through His people and the way he shows his love through the Holy Spirit in strangers and friends and family around you is amazing.

God Bless you and Robb.