A lot of you asked various questions about future children, adoption and pregnancy so I'm just going to sum it all up into one post.
First of all I'll start by saying that yes, we would like more children, Lord willing. How many? Well, I would love a big family but given the circumstances we'll probably stick to 2 hopefully 3 children. It's hard to say, Grayden is seriously in close competition for the best baby ever so its easy to think about having more kids if they would be as easy as him but chances are our future children will give us a little more trouble, or Grayden could easily change his demeanor as he grows so I may change my mind with time!
Now, this might be the confusing part. Physically it would be possible for me to get pregnant if we didn't use contraceptives to avoid it. Its just really dangerous (to the baby, to Paco and to me) due to the medications I currently take as well as the complications with my past pregnancy. Its like 2 strikes against me. Although chances are the reason my pregnancy with Brenham ended the way it did was due to my kidney issues there's no way of knowing for sure. So it would all just be really risky right now.
We do hope to adopt again someday, we're praying and waiting for God's perfect timing for us. I'll be sure to keep you posted! Right now we are loving this stage with Grayden as our only (Earthly) child. If we adopt again domestically we would definitely use Bethany Christian Services again to facilitate the adoption, no question. If we ever choose to look into International adoption I would start the research process over again and I really have no idea where we would end up agency wise. Honeydew1894 asked what I did to keep busy during the dreaded wait. Prayed! As you know adoption is so completely out of our hands so the only thing we could do to feel like we had any control over the matter was pray! We also used that time to really try to stay busy. We planned a weekend getaway, date nights and completely submerged ourselves in holiday activities (cuz its much harder to do all the stuff with a little one)! Your time will come and once you have your baby in your arms all that time waiting will be nothing in comparison to the time you have ahead of you with your precious child.
He makes all things beautiful in His time!
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