A day I had anticipated for so long while I was pregnant has become a day of sadness for us. What should have been the happiest time on our life, has turned out to be the hardest. As other mom's are receiving handmade, scribbled cards, I have one's in memory of my child. As they sit in church smiling from the recognition of their day, I sit in tears.
I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers you've had for me today, my first mother's day. It's definitely been a struggle for many reasons... without me having to explain all of the many reasons why, I am sure you know.
I have received lots of nice cards (one being from my hubby that was actually a birthday card, not a mothers day card, but hey, he tried :) emails, messages and gifts from many people. Thank you so much for acknowledging me as a mother even though my child isn't here for me to nurture and care for.
A very special gift came from Brenham's Uncle Jeremy. He got me a rose bush and wrote a very touching letter about how he wanted to get me a rose bush because it represented my life.The thorns represent life's struggles and hardships along the way but the flowers represent the good times that follow, like returned heath and more babies :) Isn't that thoughtful? What a sweet uncle Brenham has. :)
And also some friends from church dropped off this adorable bag filled with goodies.
The pocket insert on the front says:
Safe In His Hands
How very sweetly you tiptoed into our world
Almost silently, only a moment you stayed.
But what an imprint your footsteps have left upon our heart
*Here is a close up of it, the picture turned out kinda blurry but you get the idea!*
I will never use another purse again, (well maybe, I do have quite the collection :) I LOVE it!!
We also realized today as we visited Brenham's grave site after church that his headstone arrived sometime within this past week. What a precious gift. To know his life, death and Home-going will be acknowledged by all who visit there. He will never be forgotten.
I feel so lucky to have such great family and friends who have been so sensitive and understanding of the difficulty today brings. Thank you all for your support.