He gives Beauty for Ashes, Strength for Fear

Monday, April 21, 2008

I could feel everyone's prayers today as I sat in the doctors office. A peace came over me and I only had a few quiet tears, unlike the loud sobbing kind I was anticipating :) It is amazing the feeling you get when you know hundreds of people are praying for you that very minute! Thank you!
So basically this appointment was just to talk. We talked about what happened with Brenham, he is quite confident that what happened was because of the lack of blood flow to the placenta caused by my unknown at the time kidney disease. But he is also confident that I WILL be able to have babies in the future! God willing. Obviously that is if everything goes as planned and the kidney takes well. He thinks 2 years after the transplant would be a good time frame just to make sure everything is going well. Since pregnancy is hard on kidneys no matter what, he suggested not to plan on having 8 babies (don't worry, we weren't!) but 2-3 (i may push for 4!) should be okay. I will be forever grateful and feel extremely blessed with however many miracles God chooses to give us. The doctor said his heart couldn't take that much stress 8 times. I don't think Robb's heart could take that either!
Since my future pregnancies will be considered high risk, I will have see a specialist in GR a few times during the pregnancy and possibly have to deliver at Spectrum.
Let's see what else... He also would still like to do a cerclage when I get pregnant again just to insure that I don't dilate so fast again. We had talked about doing that anyway. He said he wants to take every precaution there is just to make sure everything can go as smoothly as possible next time. He said every pregnancy is valuable but mine will be extra valuable, so no cutting corners.
All of this is fine, I am willing to do whatever it takes. But there is hope!! And that definitely lifts my spirits.
So now I just have to leave everything in God's hands and hope that this is in His plan. God is good and He will carry us through, maybe not in the way we would want, but it's His way, and His ways are higher than our ways and His plan is perfect!

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11 Responses to “ He gives Beauty for Ashes, Strength for Fear ”

angiekid said...

I am so glad the Doctor gave you hope today. You will be an awesome Mother someday, and the time will come when God knows you and your body are ready!! Love ya lots, Angie

Crystal said...

So glad the doctor was so supportive and gave good news. I hope you can get the donor lined up and get the transplant moving soon! Then less time until you can get pregnant again. You are in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you but I read your blog every day and you are in my thoughts and prayers many times a day. As a mother, even the thought of having to go through what you have been through brings tears to my eyes. I do want to tell you though that you will experience joy again someday. The joy you feel will be more intense, overwhelming, and wonderful than the kind of joy most people feel because you have experienced the extreme other end of the spectrum. You now know that joy and happiness aren't feelings that should be taken for granted. You WILL have more children someday and the joy you feel will be so amazing!! I pray for you often...

Julybride_07 said...

I am so glad to hear that the doctors appointment went well!! I hope and pray that you can get a transplant soon, so you can be one step closer to being pregnant again! You are always in my thoughts and prayers!

God Bless

Anonymous said...

God Bless you and Robb. Your continuing strength amazes me. My husband and I have followed your blog since you started it and you will be in our thoughts. On a separate note, BOTB misses you. Whenever you post an update, your link is reposted. I'm sure it's hard to go on there, but know that there are so many of us that think about you often. You are missed.

Amy said...


What an answer to prayer! Honestly there is nowhere more peaceful than being placed in the arms of Jesus by your fellow believers in prayer. I know Sunday's class, about college funds and our children's future, must have been hard...and though it's hard to teach & pray at the same time, know I was doing it and even those prayers were answered through the doctor's news yesterday. Hope for the future...for what we feel God is preparing us for...and ever present help...for each moment we are reminded and tears flow again...what a Mighty God we serve. His love from our hearts. At His feet in prayer, Amy & the Klandermans

QueenOfHartz said...

I'm so happy your doctor is so supportive and willing to make your dream come true. God bless you and your husband and keep you healthy during the healing road ahead.

Anonymous said...

So glad you got good news! My only thought is about the IUD which works by creating a hostile environment for the fertilized egg. If you believe life begins at conception, it is something to think about.

You are still in my prayers. God bless!

Anonymous said...


I'm one of your readers from Switzerland. Although I don't know you personally, your story has really touched my heart. I think of you often and I'm so happy that your doctor had positive news to share. You and Robb are going to be excellent parents!

Jessica Klein said...

Soooo glad you got good new yesterday Katie... you and Robb are in my prayers daily. We (Jason and I) are excited that you recieved good news. I prayed for you throughout the day yesterday, as I know many others were as well. What an awesome Father we have! When you are blessed with another little one, I know in my heart that you will be a wonderful mommy :)

Amber06 said...

Katie you are such an amazingly strong person. Listening to Ginny Owens song and reading your last two blogs filled my heart with hope and sorrow for you. The strength you have is amazing, and God's love shines through your blogs.