I could feel everyone's prayers today as I sat in the doctors office. A peace came over me and I only had a few quiet tears, unlike the loud sobbing kind I was anticipating :) It is amazing the feeling you get when you know hundreds of people are praying for you that very minute! Thank you!
So basically this appointment was just to talk. We talked about what happened with Brenham, he is quite confident that what happened was because of the lack of blood flow to the placenta caused by my unknown at the time kidney disease. But he is also confident that I WILL be able to have babies in the future! God willing. Obviously that is if everything goes as planned and the kidney takes well. He thinks 2 years after the transplant would be a good time frame just to make sure everything is going well. Since pregnancy is hard on kidneys no matter what, he suggested not to plan on having 8 babies (don't worry, we weren't!) but 2-3 (i may push for 4!) should be okay. I will be forever grateful and feel extremely blessed with however many miracles God chooses to give us. The doctor said his heart couldn't take that much stress 8 times. I don't think Robb's heart could take that either!
Since my future pregnancies will be considered high risk, I will have see a specialist in GR a few times during the pregnancy and possibly have to deliver at Spectrum.
Let's see what else... He also would still like to do a cerclage when I get pregnant again just to insure that I don't dilate so fast again. We had talked about doing that anyway. He said he wants to take every precaution there is just to make sure everything can go as smoothly as possible next time. He said every pregnancy is valuable but mine will be extra valuable, so no cutting corners.
All of this is fine, I am willing to do whatever it takes. But there is hope!! And that definitely lifts my spirits.
So now I just have to leave everything in God's hands and hope that this is in His plan. God is good and He will carry us through, maybe not in the way we would want, but it's His way, and His ways are higher than our ways and His plan is perfect!