I am just not sure what to say, we got some bad news this morning. I am not quite ready to share all of the news but it is worse than we thought. I need prayers, I am trying to stay positive, but i am so discouraged. I just dont know why God picked on me. Sorry for my bad attitude, there are times I am stronger that i am right now. I have to get a permanent port put in tomorrow morning, similar to the one i had before only that was temporary. That will be a surgical procedure. I also will have another dialysis and hopefully go home for awhile. Keep me in your prayers, I know God can work a miracle! I will post more details another day after I have had more time to process everything.