Tuesday morning my kidney specialist came into my room and told be that the biopsy of my kidney showed lots of scaring and every single cell tested showed abnormality, so basically i have chronic kidney disease and need to be on dialysis 3 times a week until i can get a transplant. The waiting list for a kidney transplant is anywhere from 3-5 years unless we find a live donor. We also found out that this was going on during my pregnancy and caused a lack of blood flow. That is why the placenta detached. That is so hard for me to deal with. I cant help but think it is my fault that Brenham didn't survive. I feel like a very bad mommy.
And even more disappointing is the fact that i can not become pregnant again until at least 2 years after the transplant. My dreams are shattered. Now i will have to face our baby's nursery almost all decked out and ready to go for a baby that will not be here for 5-7 more years. We are expecting the nursery furniture that we ordered months ago to arrive any day now. That will be a rough day. Please pray for peace as we deal with that.
But the good news is that i came home last night! Whoo-hoo! The surgery went well, but i am very sore. But at least i am home. Robb and I along with our parents are going back to the hospital today for a second opinion. My brother-in-laws' friend's mom has a son who has had a kidney transplant (got that?!) and her son goes to a kidney specialist that said he would like to re-evaluate my disease free of charge. So we figured it wouldn't hurt to get some other opinions and some more questions answered. We are praying for a miracle, nothing less!