I had such a sense of peace over me during those hours of waiting before surgery, I felt all of your prayers and could feel God's presence with us right in that pre-op room that day. While listening to my i-pod alone in the room after Mindy had been wheeled out God sent me a sign that everything was going to be ok. The first song that played lyrics said, "there will be a day with no more tears, no more pain and no more fears," Now I know that "day" is referring to the day we get to Heaven but for me right at that moment it was a promise that this was going to be the start of a new beginning. This transplant was going to be the end of so much heartache and the beginning of so much joy. He was there.
On that friday after surgery when I first heard the news that something was horribly wrong, and i needed to be rushed into surgery I panicked and thought, "are you kidding me God, why? why are you doing this?" I prayed and prayed that Paco would be ok and they would fix whatever was wrong. Again, while laying on the gurney waiting to be wheeled into surgery, I felt that same peace. My thoughts turned to this video that a friend had emailed me several days prior. I hadn't given it much thought until then but wow, what another great reminder. God wanted me there for some reason, I don't know what but that's ok, I just had to trust. So that's what I did, I trusted in Him that this was His plan for me, this is where I am supposed to be right here, right now. He was there.
"You were there, You were there during historys darkest hour
You were there, You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be the Risen Lamb of God" ~You Were There, Avalon
"With every breath I take in I'll tell you I'm grateful again. And the storm may swell even then it is well and You are good. So how can I thank You? And what can I bring? What can a poor man lay at the feet of a King?
So I'll sing you a love song. It's all that I have to tell You I'm grateful for holding my life in Your hands." ~ You are Good, Point of Grace
I cannot thank you all enough for being on your knees in prayer for me during this time. I am so glad that you all got to be a part of this story and I appreciate your continued prayers through the rest of it.